
Cocktails in the Infinity Pool Singapore wears her skirts high above the knee, proud of her slim and tanned thighs. Her shopping malls mesmerise, their glimmer, gold and glitz, veneer-deep, a skin of tropical sweat glistening on a body we all desire. Across a polished sky, a grey mass threatens to unload its burden; rain that will sing as it bounces off swimming pools and Ferraris, trapping you where you stand or forcing you indoors, into air-conditioned boutiques, French pastries, Italian coffee and faux New York sidewalks. And yet. There is history here if you care to look, if you bother to make the journey out to Kranji or see Changi as more than just a destination for departures and duty-free; long hauls of another kind are buried not so far beneath the surface. Perhaps it is apt that her history is a precious metal to be stroked not scratched, to be caressed by cotton gloves and melancholic remembrance - and then forgotten, conquered by expeditions to Channel, Louis Vuitton, and cocktails in the infinity pool.
Coast Trace around its outline with great care, there is danger as well as beauty there. Go slowly, cautiously; try to picture postcard scenes of secluded coves, a deserted beach, the caves where smugglers hid and waited for the tide to reach. Pause again where once upon a kid you ate fish and chips with Gran, or cream fruit scones with Auntie Fran; or walking that neglected path, held hands with Ruth’s sister, Cath. Crab fishing from the pier! Or chasing pollock with a plastic reel; a Fair, a Carousel, the Dodgems’ cheer, Candy-floss’s sickly smell, screaming at the Waltzer’s spell; a litany of buckets, spades, vampires, Goths, Sunday parades, yachts, hovercraft, Bank Holiday swathes of tourists, row boats, crazy golf, and over-flowing ice cream sundaes. You touched the sea more than you knew. Retracing steam to Dartmouth, the winding roads to Lyme, St. Ives; coach trips near and far, Saltburn’s red funicular; Blackpool’s lights, Brighton’s sights, Bournemouth nights, and Whitby frights; a multicoloured film of wooden huts, of dunes and skimming stones, castles of sand fighting incoming tides; of grit in shoes when walking home dodging dog shit, the ends of fags, of wading in the freezing drink which made your little willie shrink! Trace your finger round the coast with care; where land meets sea, your history is there.
The Light of Our Lives We have a jar in our bedroom where we keep the fragment that fell from the sky and buried itself in the garden the day we moved into our new house. Some days the shard would glow and the jar illuminate with an impossible light, and if we removed the lid the light escaped and our world and our lives became just a little more wonderful. We were blessed when it landed. But recently the glow is more reticent; our rock is alive less frequently and it has become harder to top-up our lives with this astral gift and we are forced to carry on as if it never arrived, as if we were just like other people. Each evening before bed I check the jar, ever-hoping; wishing once again to be able to let a fraction of the brilliance escape. But it is always dark these days and when the lights are off our bedroom is as black as the sky.
These poems are included in Selected Poems 1976-2022.
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